so close yet so far

my week was a mess this week...even thought its just Wednesday,but there's like lots of nonsense killing every single one of my brain cells....i could hardly take any burden right now....[=.="] its just so hard for me to do just one simple thing....since before camp ever started until NOW,my mood just wasn't right....i'm way too sick of everything....including school,my home,my studies and not even shall miss out my FRIENDS.....i just too tired to see anything to happen....i could just break into pieces anytime.....it was a easy as ABC right now for me to just get EMO!one minute i could laugh,the next minute you could see me in anger,the next second,you could probably see me broke down!i didn't expect myself to couldn't handle my Form FIVE life.....its just way too tough for me to break the chain....everything seems to be connected to each other....none of them were broken apart to me.....or was it that i'm too exhausted?but how could that be?there are lots more people that are doing the exact same activities that i did....recently,i have this kind of pain in me...i couldn't explain how it feels but it seems to be on the spot where my heart beats....it feels so BAD when ever it give its maximum pain!its so HURTFUL i tell you..!you felt as if your heart was broken into pieces.....and probably feel a goosebumps!it never happen that often last time...but now,it tend to happen so often that i could barely take it anymore......well,i'm just expressing my feeling basically.....others would never understand what i would had crapped!sometimes,wouldn't girls just stop being some sorta WANNA-BE's? it felt so sick to look at you people okay?looks at yourself when you acted as if you WANTS attention...look into the mirror and did it again,you might vomit after you seen it.....well,after all....just to remind myself....JUST ONE MORE FOR YOU SIN DEE!and then OUT YOU GO!just ONE MORE!one little sheet of paper....just ONE!till then....bye.....