F-U-D-G-E

receive a letter or i shall say a map....from DREY today...and yeah thanks to the stupid rain which cause me so much to lose...the whole thing is wet right now....waiting for it to dry and open it tomorrow...hope i still could see the map properly?lolx....this is how that letter look right now....that map is to help me to go to her house for her beautiful SWEET SIXTEEN on the first day of the year....i hope i could make it...because i'll be going to the countdown on the night before..and if i came back home late...i MIGHT not be able to make it....anyway,i suppose its somewhere around noon so i think i MIGHT make it...lol...besides,i have others reason why i'm blogging actually...all in a sudden i have such big fear in me....what kind of fear??hmm...let's think bout it.....ALL KIND OF FEAR...fear about unable to handle things...unable to manage time....being too exhausted!!DAMN!!i hate this kind of feeling..it just make me feel i'm overloaded with LOTS of things....okay whatever....next year...uh-uh in just another few days time...at least 5 days....it will be a brand new year waiting for us the living ones to pass it through....i have this stupid freak-out to just listen to people telling me "oh next year its SPM for you"....SHUT UP you people!!i know everyone would have to go through it but everyone have a different kind of thought about it....so STOP making useless freaks like me to get freak out again....i have a so-called-full-tuition next year...which is every monday to thursday somewhere around the time after school....this i think i could bare with it....then i'll have choir practices which i have to arrange in order to *coughwincough* in the competition.....what the hell is wrong with me!!?yeah one more thing that i'm super FREAK-OUT with is THE SPM!!!arghh...i hate big exams!!goverments are just stupid to make us having big examinations...it don't help in any sense actually...not doing well in exam doesn't mean you're not good or smart!not doing well in exam doesn't mean you will not be employed!!F-U-D-G-E! GOVERMENTS are just plain dumb-oz....to make us SUFFER studying those thick books and swallow all the informations!!when exam comes......*BLUEK* vomit the whole lots of shits we'd swallowed onto some examination sheets and let that STUPID papers judge HOW GOOD/HOW BAD/HOW SMART OR STUPID WE ARE!!!uh-huh....those who don't get good result...i'll tell you...no YOU'RE not stupid...you're simply not good in it....not everyone are good in studies!!they have their own good side which you might not seen it....anyway,i don't care what others think about whatever i crap in my blog....i'm just being ME!not trying to be others whom i can't! bluekx....whatever....i'm feeling better now...i've waited for this chance since this morning due to my brother using the laptop whole day long....tomorrow i have to go to school at 12 pm to get my prefect's clothes and pay them the money....argh!!i have something to do now...byes~~