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no title for now....can't think of a good even a worst title for it ever.....i'm so....err.....confused...err not exactly confused but something near to confuse....erm...inner confusion....is there such thing??you have no choice but to accept the fact that there is such thing,so do i....i'm currently so panic for whatever reason it suppose to be,felt hurt also for I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT REASON,feel unwanted at the same time(not what you're thinking because there are something that you people might not understand),feeling mentally disturb,not satisfied with CERTAIN things, TENSION, depressed?,terribly sad in some god-knows-what stuff,feeling unfair,bored due to staying at home for so long,terrified,etc.....just too many to be mentioned yet indescribable......I'M EXTREMELY CONFUSED RIGHT NOW!!!i need a person to talk to who don't always comparing me with themselves either to anybody.......a person whom could understand me.....listen to is enough for all you could do....too bad,out of my life,no such person exist!i'm not taking in advices for now...yesh just for now because i'm so in a disaster-of-myself now....oh may i ask?why do a human get jealous???this is the hardest things to go through because nobody can help you!only you could help yourself which is not easy!!!!argh~~!!!!i'm so emotionally DISTURB!!for now i shall say....so to dear readers,don't come asking me what happen or whatever you might wanted to do unless you know whom is the person i NEEDED!because me either don't know who was it.......!humans mind are just so unpredictable!!!